It wasn’t the first time Strether had sat alone in the great dim
church—still less was it the first of his giving himself up, so far as
conditions permitted, to its beneficent action on his nerves. He had been to
Notre Dame with Waymarsh, he had been there with Miss Gostrey, he had been
there with Chad Newsome, and had found the place, even in company, such a
refuge from the obsession of his problem that, with renewed pressure from that
source, he had not unnaturally recurred to a remedy meeting the case, for the
moment, so indirectly, no doubt, but so relievingly. He was conscious enough
that it was only for the moment, but good moments—if he could call them
good—still had their value for a man who by this time struck himself as
living almost disgracefully from hand to mouth. Having so well learnt the way,
he had lately made the pilgrimage more than once by himself—had quite
stolen off, taking an unnoticed chance and making no point of speaking of the
adventure when restored to his friends.
His great friend, for that matter, was still absent, as well as remarkably
silent; even at the end of three weeks Miss Gostrey hadn’t come back. She
wrote to him from Mentone, admitting that he must judge her grossly
inconsequent—perhaps in fact for the time odiously faithless; but asking
for patience, for a deferred sentence, throwing herself in short on his
generosity. For her too, she could assure him, life was complicated—more
complicated than he could have guessed; she had moreover made certain of
him—certain of not wholly missing him on her return—before her
disappearance. If furthermore she didn’t burden him with letters it was
frankly because of her sense of the other great commerce he had to carry on. He
himself, at the end of a fortnight, had written twice, to show how his
generosity could be trusted; but he reminded himself in each case of Mrs.
Newsome’s epistolary manner at the times when Mrs. Newsome kept off
delicate ground. He sank his problem, he talked of Waymarsh and Miss Barrace,
of little Bilham and the set over the river, with whom he had again had tea,
and he was easy, for convenience, about Chad and Madame de Vionnet and Jeanne.
He admitted that he continued to see them, he was decidedly so confirmed a
haunter of Chad’s premises and that young man’s practical intimacy
with them was so undeniably great; but he had his reason for not attempting to
render for Miss Gostrey’s benefit the impression of these last days. That
would be to tell her too much about himself—it being at present just from
himself he was trying to escape.
This small struggle sprang not a little, in its way, from the same impulse that
had now carried him across to Notre Dame; the impulse to let things be, to give
them time to justify themselves or at least to pass. He was aware of having no
errand in such a place but the desire not to be, for the hour, in certain other
places; a sense of safety, of simplification, which each time he yielded to it
he amused himself by thinking of as a private concession to cowardice. The
great church had no altar for his worship, no direct voice for his soul; but it
was none the less soothing even to sanctity; for he could feel while there what
he couldn’t elsewhere, that he was a plain tired man taking the holiday
he had earned. He was tired, but he wasn’t plain—that was the pity
and the trouble of it; he was able, however, to drop his problem at the door
very much as if it had been the copper piece that he deposited, on the
threshold, in the receptacle of the inveterate blind beggar. He trod the long
dim nave, sat in the splendid choir, paused before the cluttered chapels of the
east end, and the mighty monument laid upon him its spell. He might have been a
student under the charm of a museum—which was exactly what, in a foreign
town, in the afternoon of life, he would have liked to be free to be. This form
of sacrifice did at any rate for the occasion as well as another; it made him
quite sufficiently understand how, within the precinct, for the real refugee,
the things of the world could fall into abeyance. That was the cowardice,
probably—to dodge them, to beg the question, not to deal with it in the
hard outer light; but his own oblivions were too brief, too vain, to hurt any
one but himself, and he had a vague and fanciful kindness for certain persons
whom he met, figures of mystery and anxiety, and whom, with observation for his
pastime, he ranked as those who were fleeing from justice. Justice was outside,
in the hard light, and injustice too; but one was as absent as the other from
the air of the long aisles and the brightness of the many altars.
Thus it was at all events that, one morning some dozen days after the dinner in
the Boulevard Malesherbes at which Madame de Vionnet had been present with her
daughter, he was called upon to play his part in an encounter that deeply
stirred his imagination. He had the habit, in these contemplations, of watching
a fellow visitant, here and there, from a respectable distance, remarking some
note of behaviour, of penitence, of prostration, of the absolved, relieved
state; this was the manner in which his vague tenderness took its course, the
degree of demonstration to which it naturally had to confine itself. It
hadn’t indeed so felt its responsibility as when on this occasion he
suddenly measured the suggestive effect of a lady whose supreme stillness, in
the shade of one of the chapels, he had two or three times noticed as he made,
and made once more, his slow circuit. She wasn’t prostrate—not in
any degree bowed, but she was strangely fixed, and her prolonged immobility
showed her, while he passed and paused, as wholly given up to the need,
whatever it was, that had brought her there. She only sat and gazed before her,
as he himself often sat; but she had placed herself, as he never did, within
the focus of the shrine, and she had lost herself, he could easily see, as he
would only have liked to do. She was not a wandering alien, keeping back more
than she gave, but one of the familiar, the intimate, the fortunate, for whom
these dealings had a method and a meaning. She reminded our friend—since
it was the way of nine tenths of his current impressions to act as recalls of
things imagined—of some fine firm concentrated heroine of an old story,
something he had heard, read, something that, had he had a hand for drama, he
might himself have written, renewing her courage, renewing her clearness, in
splendidly-protected meditation. Her back, as she sat, was turned to him, but
his impression absolutely required that she should be young and interesting,
and she carried her head moreover, even in the sacred shade, with a discernible
faith in herself, a kind of implied conviction of consistency, security,
impunity. But what had such a woman come for if she hadn’t come to pray?
Strether’s reading of such matters was, it must be owned, confused; but
he wondered if her attitude were some congruous fruit of absolution, of
“indulgence.” He knew but dimly what indulgence, in such a place,
might mean; yet he had, as with a soft sweep, a vision of how it might indeed
add to the zest of active rites. All this was a good deal to have been denoted
by a mere lurking figure who was nothing to him; but, the last thing before
leaving the church, he had the surprise of a still deeper quickening.
He had dropped upon a seat halfway down the nave and, again in the museum mood,
was trying with head thrown back and eyes aloft, to reconstitute a past, to
reduce it in fact to the convenient terms of Victor Hugo, whom, a few days
before, giving the rein for once in a way to the joy of life, he had purchased
in seventy bound volumes, a miracle of cheapness, parted with, he was assured
by the shopman, at the price of the red-and-gold alone. He looked, doubtless,
while he played his eternal nippers over Gothic glooms, sufficiently rapt in
reverence; but what his thought had finally bumped against was the question of
where, among packed accumulations, so multiform a wedge would be able to enter.
Were seventy volumes in red-and-gold to be perhaps what he should most
substantially have to show at Woollett as the fruit of his mission? It was a
possibility that held him a minute—held him till he happened to feel that
some one, unnoticed, had approached him and paused. Turning, he saw that a lady
stood there as for a greeting, and he sprang up as he next took her, securely,
for Madame de Vionnet, who appeared to have recognised him as she passed near
him on her way to the door. She checked, quickly and gaily, a certain confusion
in him, came to meet it, turned it back, by an art of her own; the confusion
having threatened him as he knew her for the person he had lately been
observing. She was the lurking figure of the dim chapel; she had occupied him
more than she guessed; but it came to him in time, luckily, that he
needn’t tell her and that no harm, after all, had been done. She herself,
for that matter, straightway showing she felt their encounter as the happiest
of accidents, had for him a “You come here too?” that despoiled
surprise of every awkwardness.
“I come often,” she said. “I love this place, but I’m
terrible, in general, for churches. The old women who live in them all know me;
in fact I’m already myself one of the old women. It’s like that, at
all events, that I foresee I shall end.” Looking about for a chair, so
that he instantly pulled one nearer, she sat down with him again to the sound
of an “Oh, I like so much your also being fond—!”
He confessed the extent of his feeling, though she left the object vague; and
he was struck with the tact, the taste of her vagueness, which simply took for
granted in him a sense of beautiful things. He was conscious of how much it was
affected, this sense, by something subdued and discreet in the way she had
arranged herself for her special object and her morning walk—he believed
her to have come on foot; the way her slightly thicker veil was drawn—a
mere touch, but everything; the composed gravity of her dress, in which, here
and there, a dull wine-colour seemed to gleam faintly through black; the
charming discretion of her small compact head; the quiet note, as she sat, of
her folded, grey-gloved hands. It was, to Strether’s mind, as if she sat
on her own ground, the light honours of which, at an open gate, she thus easily
did him, while all the vastness and mystery of the domain stretched off behind.
When people were so completely in possession they could be extraordinarily
civil; and our friend had indeed at this hour a kind of revelation of her
heritage. She was romantic for him far beyond what she could have guessed, and
again he found his small comfort in the conviction that, subtle though she was,
his impression must remain a secret from her. The thing that, once more, made
him uneasy for secrets in general was this particular patience she could have
with his own want of colour; albeit that on the other hand his uneasiness
pretty well dropped after he had been for ten minutes as colourless as possible
and at the same time as responsive.
The moments had already, for that matter, drawn their deepest tinge from the
special interest excited in him by his vision of his companion’s identity
with the person whose attitude before the glimmering altar had so impressed
him. This attitude fitted admirably into the stand he had privately taken about
her connexion with Chad on the last occasion of his seeing them together. It
helped him to stick fast at the point he had then reached; it was there he had
resolved that he would stick, and at no moment since had it seemed as
easy to do so. Unassailably innocent was a relation that could make one of the
parties to it so carry herself. If it wasn’t innocent why did she haunt
the churches?—into which, given the woman he could believe he made out,
she would never have come to flaunt an insolence of guilt. She haunted them for
continued help, for strength, for peace—sublime support which, if one
were able to look at it so, she found from day to day. They talked, in low easy
tones and with lifted lingering looks, about the great monument and its history
and its beauty—all of which, Madame de Vionnet professed, came to her
most in the other, the outer view. “We’ll presently, after we
go,” she said, “walk round it again if you like. I’m not in a
particular hurry, and it will be pleasant to look at it well with you.”
He had spoken of the great romancer and the great romance, and of what, to his
imagination, they had done for the whole, mentioning to her moreover the
exorbitance of his purchase, the seventy blazing volumes that were so out of
proportion.
“Out of proportion to what?”
“Well, to any other plunge.” Yet he felt even as he spoke how at
that instant he was plunging. He had made up his mind and was impatient to get
into the air; for his purpose was a purpose to be uttered outside, and he had a
fear that it might with delay still slip away from him. She however took her
time; she drew out their quiet gossip as if she had wished to profit by their
meeting, and this confirmed precisely an interpretation of her manner, of her
mystery. While she rose, as he would have called it, to the question of Victor
Hugo, her voice itself, the light low quaver of her deference to the solemnity
about them, seemed to make her words mean something that they didn’t mean
openly. Help, strength, peace, a sublime support—she hadn’t found
so much of these things as that the amount wouldn’t be sensibly greater
for any scrap his appearance of faith in her might enable her to feel in her
hand. Every little, in a long strain, helped, and if he happened to affect her
as a firm object she could hold on by, he wouldn’t jerk himself out of
her reach. People in difficulties held on by what was nearest, and he was
perhaps after all not further off than sources of comfort more abstract. It was
as to this he had made up his mind; he had made it up, that is, to give her a
sign. The sign would be that—though it was her own affair—he
understood; the sign would be that—though it was her own affair—she
was free to clutch. Since she took him for a firm object—much as he might
to his own sense appear at times to rock—he would do his best to
be one.
The end of it was that half an hour later they were seated together for an
early luncheon at a wonderful, a delightful house of entertainment on the left
bank—a place of pilgrimage for the knowing, they were both aware, the
knowing who came, for its great renown, the homage of restless days, from the
other end of the town. Strether had already been there three times—first
with Miss Gostrey, then with Chad, then with Chad again and with Waymarsh and
little Bilham, all of whom he had himself sagaciously entertained; and his
pleasure was deep now on learning that Madame de Vionnet hadn’t yet been
initiated. When he had said as they strolled round the church, by the river,
acting at last on what, within, he had made up his mind to, “Will you, if
you have time, come to déjeuner with me somewhere? For instance, if you know
it, over there on the other side, which is so easy a walk”—and then
had named the place; when he had done this she stopped short as for quick
intensity, and yet deep difficulty, of response. She took in the proposal as if
it were almost too charming to be true; and there had perhaps never yet been
for her companion so unexpected a moment of pride—so fine, so odd a case,
at any rate, as his finding himself thus able to offer to a person in such
universal possession a new, a rare amusement. She had heard of the happy spot,
but she asked him in reply to a further question how in the world he could
suppose her to have been there. He supposed himself to have supposed that Chad
might have taken her, and she guessed this the next moment to his no small
discomfort.
“Ah, let me explain,” she smiled, “that I don’t go
about with him in public; I never have such chances—not having them
otherwise—and it’s just the sort of thing that, as a quiet creature
living in my hole, I adore.” It was more than kind of him to have thought
of it—though, frankly, if he asked whether she had time she hadn’t
a single minute. That however made no difference—she’d throw
everything over. Every duty at home, domestic, maternal, social, awaited her;
but it was a case for a high line. Her affairs would go to smash, but
hadn’t one a right to one’s snatch of scandal when one was prepared
to pay? It was on this pleasant basis of costly disorder, consequently, that
they eventually seated themselves, on either side of a small table, at a window
adjusted to the busy quay and the shining barge-burdened Seine; where, for an
hour, in the matter of letting himself go, of diving deep, Strether was to feel
he had touched bottom. He was to feel many things on this occasion, and one of
the first of them was that he had travelled far since that evening in London,
before the theatre, when his dinner with Maria Gostrey, between the pink-shaded
candles, had struck him as requiring so many explanations. He had at that time
gathered them in, the explanations—he had stored them up; but it was at
present as if he had either soared above or sunk below them—he
couldn’t tell which; he could somehow think of none that didn’t
seem to leave the appearance of collapse and cynicism easier for him than
lucidity. How could he wish it to be lucid for others, for any one, that he,
for the hour, saw reasons enough in the mere way the bright clean ordered
water-side life came in at the open window?—the mere way Madame de
Vionnet, opposite him over their intensely white table-linen, their omelette
aux tomates, their bottle of straw-coloured Chablis, thanked him for
everything almost with the smile of a child, while her grey eyes moved in and
out of their talk, back to the quarter of the warm spring air, in which early
summer had already begun to throb, and then back again to his face and their
human questions.
Their human questions became many before they had done—many more, as one
after the other came up, than our friend’s free fancy had at all
foreseen. The sense he had had before, the sense he had had repeatedly, the
sense that the situation was running away with him, had never been so sharp as
now; and all the more that he could perfectly put his finger on the moment it
had taken the bit in its teeth. That accident had definitely occurred, the
other evening, after Chad’s dinner; it had occurred, as he fully knew, at
the moment when he interposed between this lady and her child, when he suffered
himself so to discuss with her a matter closely concerning them that her own
subtlety, marked by its significant “Thank you!” instantly sealed
the occasion in her favour. Again he had held off for ten days, but the
situation had continued out of hand in spite of that; the fact that it was
running so fast being indeed just why he had held off. What had come
over him as he recognised her in the nave of the church was that holding off
could be but a losing game from the instant she was worked for not only by her
subtlety, but by the hand of fate itself. If all the accidents were to fight on
her side—and by the actual showing they loomed large—he could only
give himself up. This was what he had done in privately deciding then and there
to propose she should breakfast with him. What did the success of his proposal
in fact resemble but the smash in which a regular runaway properly ends? The
smash was their walk, their déjeuner, their omelette, the Chablis, the place,
the view, their present talk and his present pleasure in it—to say
nothing, wonder of wonders, of her own. To this tune and nothing less,
accordingly, was his surrender made good. It sufficiently lighted up at least
the folly of holding off. Ancient proverbs sounded, for his memory, in the tone
of their words and the clink of their glasses, in the hum of the town and the
plash of the river. It was clearly better to suffer as a sheep than as a
lamb. One might as well perish by the sword as by famine.
“Maria’s still away?”—that was the first thing she had
asked him; and when he had found the frankness to be cheerful about it in spite
of the meaning he knew her to attach to Miss Gostrey’s absence, she had
gone on to enquire if he didn’t tremendously miss her. There were reasons
that made him by no means sure, yet he nevertheless answered
“Tremendously”; which she took in as if it were all she had wished
to prove. Then, “A man in trouble must be possessed somehow of a
woman,” she said; “if she doesn’t come in one way she comes
in another.”
“Why do you call me a man in trouble?”
“Ah because that’s the way you strike me.” She spoke ever so
gently and as if with all fear of wounding him while she sat partaking of his
bounty. “Aren’t you in trouble?”
He felt himself colour at the question, and then hated that—hated to pass
for anything so idiotic as woundable. Woundable by Chad’s lady, in
respect to whom he had come out with such a fund of indifference—was he
already at that point? Perversely, none the less, his pause gave a strange air
of truth to her supposition; and what was he in fact but disconcerted at having
struck her just in the way he had most dreamed of not doing? “I’m
not in trouble yet,” he at last smiled. “I’m not in trouble
now.”
“Well, I’m always so. But that you sufficiently know.” She
was a woman who, between courses, could be graceful with her elbows on the
table. It was a posture unknown to Mrs. Newsome, but it was easy for a femme
du monde. “Yes—I am ‘now’!”
“There was a question you put to me,” he presently returned,
“the night of Chad’s dinner. I didn’t answer it then, and it
has been very handsome of you not to have sought an occasion for pressing me
about it since.”
She was instantly all there. “Of course I know what you allude to. I
asked you what you had meant by saying, the day you came to see me, just before
you left me, that you’d save me. And you then said—at our
friend’s—that you’d have really to wait to see, for yourself,
what you did mean.”
“Yes, I asked for time,” said Strether. “And it sounds now,
as you put it, like a very ridiculous speech.”
“Oh!” she murmured—she was full of attenuation. But she had
another thought. “If it does sound ridiculous why do you deny that
you’re in trouble?”
“Ah if I were,” he replied, “it wouldn’t be the trouble
of fearing ridicule. I don’t fear it.”
“What then do you?”
“Nothing—now.” And he leaned back in his chair.
“I like your ‘now’!” she laughed across at him.
“Well, it’s precisely that it fully comes to me at present that
I’ve kept you long enough. I know by this time, at any rate, what I meant
by my speech; and I really knew it the night of Chad’s dinner.”
“Then why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because it was difficult at the moment. I had already at that moment
done something for you, in the sense of what I had said the day I went to see
you; but I wasn’t then sure of the importance I might represent this as
having.”
She was all eagerness. “And you’re sure now?”
“Yes; I see that, practically, I’ve done for you—had done for
you when you put me your question—all that it’s as yet possible to
me to do. I feel now,” he went on, “that it may go further than I
thought. What I did after my visit to you,” he explained, “was to
write straight off to Mrs. Newsome about you, and I’m at last, from one
day to the other, expecting her answer. It’s this answer that will
represent, as I believe, the consequences.”
Patient and beautiful was her interest. “I see—the consequences of
your speaking for me.” And she waited as if not to hustle him.
He acknowledged it by immediately going on. “The question, you
understand, was how I should save you. Well, I’m trying it by thus
letting her know that I consider you worth saving.”
“I see—I see.” Her eagerness broke through.
“How can I thank you enough?” He couldn’t tell her that,
however, and she quickly pursued. “You do really, for yourself, consider
it?”
His only answer at first was to help her to the dish that had been freshly put
before them. “I’ve written to her again since then—I’ve
left her in no doubt of what I think. I’ve told her all about you.”
“Thanks—not so much. ‘All about’ me,” she went
on—“yes.”
“All it seems to me you’ve done for him.”
“Ah and you might have added all it seems to me!” She
laughed again, while she took up her knife and fork, as in the cheer of these
assurances. “But you’re not sure how she’ll take it.”
“No, I’ll not pretend I’m sure.”
“Voilà.” And she waited a moment. “I wish you’d tell me
about her.”
“Oh,” said Strether with a slightly strained smile, “all that
need concern you about her is that she’s really a grand person.”
Madame de Vionnet seemed to demur. “Is that all that need concern me
about her?”
But Strether neglected the question. “Hasn’t Chad talked to
you?”
“Of his mother? Yes, a great deal—immensely. But not from your
point of view.”
“He can’t,” our friend returned, “have said any ill of
her.”
“Not the least bit. He has given me, like you, the assurance that
she’s really grand. But her being really grand is somehow just what
hasn’t seemed to simplify our case. Nothing,” she continued,
“is further from me than to wish to say a word against her; but of course
I feel how little she can like being told of her owing me anything. No woman
ever enjoys such an obligation to another woman.”
This was a proposition Strether couldn’t contradict. “And yet what
other way could I have expressed to her what I felt? It’s what there was
most to say about you.”
“Do you mean then that she will be good to me?”
“It’s what I’m waiting to see. But I’ve little doubt
she would,” he added, “if she could comfortably see you.”
It seemed to strike her as a happy, a beneficent thought. “Oh then
couldn’t that be managed? Wouldn’t she come out? Wouldn’t she
if you so put it to her? Did you by any possibility?” she faintly
quavered.
“Oh no”—he was prompt. “Not that. It would be, much
more, to give an account of you that—since there’s no question of
your paying the visit—I should go home first.”
It instantly made her graver. “And are you thinking of that?”
“Oh all the while, naturally.”
“Stay with us—stay with us!” she exclaimed on this.
“That’s your only way to make sure.”
“To make sure of what?”
“Why that he doesn’t break up. You didn’t come out to do that
to him.”
“Doesn’t it depend,” Strether returned after a moment,
“on what you mean by breaking up?”
“Oh you know well enough what I mean!”
His silence seemed again for a little to denote an understanding. “You
take for granted remarkable things.”
“Yes, I do—to the extent that I don’t take for granted vulgar
ones. You’re perfectly capable of seeing that what you came out for
wasn’t really at all to do what you’d now have to do.”
“Ah it’s perfectly simple,” Strether good-humouredly pleaded.
“I’ve had but one thing to do—to put our case before him. To
put it as it could only be put here on the spot—by personal pressure. My
dear lady,” he lucidly pursued, “my work, you see, is really done,
and my reasons for staying on even another day are none of the best.
Chad’s in possession of our case and professes to do it full justice.
What remains is with himself. I’ve had my rest, my amusement and
refreshment; I’ve had, as we say at Woollett, a lovely time. Nothing in
it has been more lovely than this happy meeting with you—in these
fantastic conditions to which you’ve so delightfully consented.
I’ve a sense of success. It’s what I wanted. My getting all this
good is what Chad has waited for, and I gather that if I’m ready to go
he’s the same.”
She shook her head with a finer deeper wisdom. “You’re not ready.
If you’re ready why did you write to Mrs. Newsome in the sense
you’ve mentioned to me?”
Strether considered. “I shan’t go before I hear from her.
You’re too much afraid of her,” he added.
It produced between them a long look from which neither shrank. “I
don’t think you believe that—believe I’ve not really reason
to fear her.”
“She’s capable of great generosity,” Strether presently
stated.
“Well then let her trust me a little. That’s all I ask. Let her
recognise in spite of everything what I’ve done.”
“Ah remember,” our friend replied, “that she can’t
effectually recognise it without seeing it for herself. Let Chad go over and
show her what you’ve done, and let him plead with her there for it and,
as it were, for you.”
She measured the depth of this suggestion. “Do you give me your word of
honour that if she once has him there she won’t do her best to marry
him?”
It made her companion, this enquiry, look again a while out at the view; after
which he spoke without sharpness. “When she sees for herself what he
is—”
But she had already broken in. “It’s when she sees for herself what
he is that she’ll want to marry him most.”
Strether’s attitude, that of due deference to what she said, permitted
him to attend for a minute to his luncheon. “I doubt if that will come
off. It won’t be easy to make it.”
“It will be easy if he remains there—and he’ll remain for the
money. The money appears to be, as a probability, so hideously much.”
“Well,” Strether presently concluded, “nothing could
really hurt you but his marrying.”
She gave a strange light laugh. “Putting aside what may really hurt
him.”
But her friend looked at her as if he had thought of that too. “The
question will come up, of course, of the future that you yourself offer
him.”
She was leaning back now, but she fully faced him. “Well, let it come
up!”
“The point is that it’s for Chad to make of it what he can. His
being proof against marriage will show what he does make.”
“If he is proof, yes”—she accepted the proposition.
“But for myself,” she added, “the question is what you
make.”
“Ah I make nothing. It’s not my affair.”
“I beg your pardon. It’s just there that, since you’ve taken
it up and are committed to it, it most intensely becomes yours. You’re
not saving me, I take it, for your interest in myself, but for your interest in
our friend. The one’s at any rate wholly dependent on the other. You
can’t in honour not see me through,” she wound up, “because
you can’t in honour not see him.”
Strange and beautiful to him was her quiet soft acuteness. The thing that most
moved him was really that she was so deeply serious. She had none of the
portentous forms of it, but he had never come in contact, it struck him, with a
force brought to so fine a head. Mrs. Newsome, goodness knew, was serious; but
it was nothing to this. He took it all in, he saw it all together.
“No,” he mused, “I can’t in honour not see him.”
Her face affected him as with an exquisite light. “You will
then?”
“I will.”
At this she pushed back her chair and was the next moment on her feet.
“Thank you!” she said with her hand held out to him across the
table and with no less a meaning in the words than her lips had so particularly
given them after Chad’s dinner. The golden nail she had then driven in
pierced a good inch deeper. Yet he reflected that he himself had only meanwhile
done what he had made up his mind to on the same occasion. So far as the
essence of the matter went he had simply stood fast on the spot on which he had
then planted his feet.
